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Watching pornography is a very secret activity, it’s one of those things that we don’t want people to know what we’re doing, and we certainly don’t want them to get caught up in it. There’s a kind of visible shame in that, filling our flesh with the flesh of someone who hasn’t given himself to us.
High consumption
Virtual rape.
Total selfishness.
By clicking from person to person, we satisfy our desire, taking whoever we want, as we wish, until we are satisfied, at least for a while.
When I was 15, I kept a pornographic photo in one of my drawers, I liked to look at it, if only to do nothing, I just liked to watch.
I came home one day and my parents called me in their room. This is the kind of invitation that made me expect something serious. The kind of invocation that makes you tense and instantly worried. I remember the dark hallway that took me to the room. The room was lit up, as if the light itself was waiting to expose something I didn’t want to light up.
I hated everything
Pornography was in bed. My parents were there, sitting on the bed next to her, their feet dangling.
We talked a little bit. They were sad and alarmed. They knew they had to act; were trying to figure out my situation.
I remember my father asking me, “Shane, do you see this a lot?”
“No, Dad, I just like having you. “
“Then why, Shane?
My answer: “I like to have it as a disposition. “
Strange, isn’t it? What kind of 15-year-old boy talks about pornography as a disposition, today I realize how strange he was, especially since I don’t know why I said it, I don’t know why I said that word. Available.
Later a biblical passage came to mind.
Night passed and the day came; let us therefore reject the works of darkness and see the weapons of light. Let us walk honestly, as in the daytime; not in gluttony, not in drinking, not in dishonesty, not in dissolution, not in conflict and envy, but in the dress of the Lord Jesus Christ and do not arrange for the flesh to satisfy his desires (Romans 13. 12?14).
Had he applied the scriptures? Myself!
I was afraid they’d see me. Was I being appetizing myself from the “works of darkness”?For meat, to satisfy your cravings?
I loved him and I just wanted to have him near me. Like food or water, I thought I needed porn to survive.
I wasn’t consuming Jesus, I was consuming something completely different.
Meat is a voracious thing: always hungry, the more you eat, the more it grows, the more you want. As Captain Barbosa said in Pirates of the Caribbean, after he and his crew took Cortez’s cursed gold and began spending it:
“Food has turned grey in our mouths, and all the pleasant company in the world could not satisfy our desire. Are we cursed men?. ?
Does pornography offer life but turn it into ashes, even when you’re using it?
You and I deserve to be pushed into the light, exposed as shameful assailants, mocked and slandered in our nudity, before the world.
But instead, Jesus left
He didn’t sacrifice himself to embarrass you. He sacrificed himself so he could meet you.
He was mistreated by you. He was mocked by you. He is the only one capable of settling with you in your shame and despair. He went to the cross to discover his darkness.
Jesus crossed the cross so that he could give you a resurrection
Time to stop hiding in the dark. “The night has passed and the day has come. ” The food we eat will continue to turn to ashes. Our relationships have remained only superficial. People are more than bags of meat, is it time to put your cross and your empty tomb on the Lord Jesus Christ? And be a guardian of the image of God in others, rather than an explorer.
We’re not 15 anymore. It’s time to grow up and dress up as Christ.