“I think the hardest thing for me about abortion?Besides the fact that you had one?He said, crying as he remembered it. ” It was a two-day process. I had to arrive a day early to have something inserted into my cervix to dilate it, so I had a day to think about the case, but my decision was made, I didn’t think about changing my mind after receiving the recommendation. Do I remember anyone ever asking me about alternatives? They gave me certain types of pills beforehand and the doctor told me I’d feel pain. I didn’t ask many questions. I didn’t want to know.
I had contractions before the procedure, during the procedure I received intravenous drugs, it was very clear inside and the nurse kept asking me about my favorite vacation or my positive memories, she was trying to distract me from what was going on. and create a positive memory. There were constant jolts and movements. There were times when the doctor took an instrument, inserted it and did something, which meant cutting a limb or breaking a part, because it didn’t fit into the suction tube, but did I know that the skull wouldn’t be as small as that?pipe?should break the skull before taking the baby out. It’s so macabre; It’s just horrible. And it’s very painful in hindsight, it’s a butcher’s job. But I wanted him to do it, so I can’t blame the doctor.
- Then I felt a lot of abdominal pain and bled a lot.
- They told me to call someone to stay with me all night because I could have a fever.
- I had a few days freer and I took antibiotics for five days.
- It will be simple.
- Like the Pap test.
- It takes much longer than you think and there is no emotion on the part of the people involved.
- So it is common to have an emotional discouragement afterwards.
- I didn’t have time to think.
- I didn’t want to wonder if it was a real person or just an egg.
- I had a feeling I’d done something wrong.
- But I didn’t want to think about it.
- Do you think you can have a real experience of the consequences of your sin.
- Even without knowing anything about sin?because that’s what happened to me.
Embarrassed by her abortion, Elke told people she had simply lost the baby. Her boyfriend brought her food and cared for her for the first two days, but she quickly distanced herself, many crimes were still ongoing and her police unit was often called, but once this was resolved, she became less and less accessible. Up.
At the same time, a Christian at work began to approach Elke and another co-worker, began a Bible study, and invited them to participate, then, after a few weeks, offered to take them to church. friend began attending and eventually joined a small group focused on evangelism. Week after week, he heard the truth about Jesus, sin, hell, salvation, the church, and more in a relational atmosphere. At the end of this course, Elke repented of his sins and placed his trust in the saving work of Jesus Christ on the cross.
As a new Christian, I was eager to learn more about Jesus and the Bible; in his studies, he became convinced that his abortion was a sin because he violated God’s commandment not to kill; He also saw that God was the Creator of life and the one he provided to all his creatures. Although she repented of her sin and selfishness before God, she still suffered from the feeling of condemnation and guilt. “At first, in my little group, I remember feeling really doomed.
“But did I kill anyone!? I felt I couldn’t be under the same grace as the others. Then the leader of my group looked at me and said, “You know, we all killed someone. “And at that moment, I finally understood: is it our sin, that of all of us, who sent Jesus to the cross?, my sin ?, and all, and yet was that the way for me to be forgiven?
Six years later, she married a man she met in church and became pregnant with her first child about a year later. I was astonished that God could be so kind to her after all she had done.
“When I got pregnant, a friend of mine lost the baby,” Elke says. “Did I think I deserved this?” not her. She hadn’t had an abortion. My husband must have helped me understand that I am now a new creation in Christ. I’m not the same person who performed the abortion. I have been forgiven of this sin. But during the first four months of pregnancy, at each stage, I kept thinking about how I’d experienced it all before.
Elke stops, still massaging his belly. ” I can feel your ass here. “
She looks up with tears in her eyes. “Life is truly a miracle. “
By: Carolyn Macculey. © EDITOR FIEL. Website: editorafiel. com. br. Translated with permission. Source: Graca Marterna? This text is part of the book Radical Femininity, Carolyn Macculey.
Original: Graça Materna. © Faithful Ministry. Website: MinisterioFiel. com. br. All rights reserved.